a new day - time to move on

first of all, i'd like to thank all friends yg memberi kata2 mukadimah n semangat pade i on the last entry. ok, i xnk grieving lagi. i tetap positive yg bende ni akan settle. i even dh pledge to myself yg bnde ni akan settle on so n so date. but then i xla strict sgt. there are things yg i have to leave it to God cause only he knows best. with my little effort n doa, i hope God will help me n show me the way. dear friends, pray for me also eh?

so, hal smlm blom settle lagi. cume dh nmpk commitment yg the other party xsenang duduk nk selesai kan hal ni cpt. ye la, diorg yg bergaye pakai alarm bagai, kite yg nk angkat kete baru plak sangkut. sabar je la.. bile berjumpe dgn org tu smlm i can see sadness in azam's face. muke die mcm dh putus harapan n xtau nk ckp ape dh. kalo nk tau, azam kalo bole mmg nk pakai kete baru before our wedding. before this die sgt confident n excited nk bwk i naik kete tu. smpai mase test drive pun actually die nk gi rumah i tp i yg xde kt rumah. *sobs*

tp tu la, mungkin ni sume dugaan kan. rasenye azam dh start to accept n working his level best jgak to settle everything. so do i. seronok sgt bile die layan i tgk cite hikayat merong mahawangsa gune youtube smlm. hahaha.. n die buat byk lawak international jgak. cume bile die sebut pasal kete like "kalo xminggu dpn i dh pakai kete baru dh", yg tu i sentap. mcm nk makan jari sendiri je bile die ckp mcm tu. tp xpe, i xblame die. i pun actually keep telling myself the same thing.

skrg ni hari2 i bgn pagi i ade hope. hope nk dgr yg that other party dh beres kan all the outstanding so that the system will start cleaning up azam's name ASAP. apart from that, wedding preps i tetap i akan jalan kan. i know azam akan jadi sgt marah kalo die tau i xde mood nk buat bende i ske buat semate2 sbb mslh2 mcm ni. die keep telling me that this is not my fault for me to tanggung. i know. but i just want to tanggung cz i feel so bad for him.

ok la, kate xmo grieving tp 4 paragraph jgak kan. now, can i get my pre-wed photoshoot mood back? ok, go! 

so the other day i dh discuss dgn my adik2 on my plan. thank god they are willing to help. kje mereka adalah utk mengumpulkan props utk i. i dont need to buy much. trying to utilize things yg kitorg dh ade. pretty sure on the concept already. pik-a-nic of cz. reason, murah, senang dan cepat. mmg confirm sume cake stand mak, table cloth mak n candle2 mak kitorg angkut. sorry mak.. spot pun dh confirm. dkt shah alam area jgak. 

my first adik pun siap dh survey kan tpt mane nk beli this n that. n skrg i just cant wait for our "we" time with adik2 to kumpul2 all the props. *sejuk perut aku bile adik sendiri pun turut excited utk aku. nk pujuk aku la tu cz 2-3hari ni aku kemurungan hal kereta tu*. in fact kalo bawak ramai2 skit entourage xla segan sgt kan kt tpt public. nk posing2 lagi. alahai..

so nnt bile bahan2 i dh siap i share kayh? *hey, tgk.. mood i dh swing la!*

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