Thursday, March 13, 2014

time to wean her off

good day everyone..

lame xupdate blog.

skrg baru rase nk update sbb .. aku dah xperah susu lagi. rase nye kali ni official. i can say bye bye to my spectra. weekend ni nak pack masuk kotak. ohhh... how time flies.

alkisah

selama setahun 3bln aku menjadi supplier tunggal susu kepada dian, aku rase skrg mcm mesin dah karat2 skit. dah xbole nk berfungsi dgn baik utk produce susu yg secukup nya utk dian. si dian tu kan dah besor. suke lari sana lari sini panjat sana panjat sini, so she definitely need enough vitamins to keep her going. kesian plak rase kalo die cume ade pilihan susu aku je hari2. skrg aku dh xangkut pam keoffice hari2. ehhh.. bkn skrg. rase nye since few months ago kut. mmg dh xangkut. time kampeni ade nursing room la xnk angkut. time keje kat kampeni yg kne pam kat meeting room kemain gigih. 

so mase xbwk pam tu aku just pam bile dh blk rumah. smpai je rumah, laju2 gi naik bilik utk pam susu. tu pon hasil nye sikit je. kesian dian.. dh la bile aku blk je kemain die mintak dukung mcm dahaga sgt. 

so, i decided to buy her formula milk then. knowing that she sometimes refuse to drink milk with plain milk taste, i decided to try dugro dgn flavor coklat n stroberi. haaa amik.. coklat ade stoberi pon ade. fortunately, dian minum je tanpa prasangka. the night we tested the milk on dian, die minum xhabis pon. aku pon pgi beria buat ikut instruction. 5sudu + 190ml air suam. mmg xhabis la. next day try lg kat rumah mak. mak kate die minum. fuhhhh legaaaaaaaaaa..

mayb sbb siang kne minum fm, so die rindu sgt2 susu mak die yg cap gantung ni. so bile blk rumah je mmg dh xdan nk pam, die dah chop dulu. baru nk bersila amik port nk pam die dh duduk atas lap peluk2. so, paham2 la.. she "miss" me.

so officially aku mmg dh xdan nk pam susu bile blk kje. the only time i may pump ialah diwaktu pagi before kje. tu pon stakat gune manual pam tommee tippee tu je. terus masuk botol. senang. there goes dian's bfast of the day. tp td xbuat pon. kesian dian breakfast susu coklat. 

tp dian ni pe'el nye lately ni satu mcm sikit. bgn pagi dah nak nenen. heyyyy.. terbantut la mak nk siap pgi kje. anak anak.. mak ni pon xsampai hati la nk menolak. layan la 5-10min. n there goes my time n the reason why i sometimes late to work.

during weekend, aku breastfeed dian semampu aku. tp dian pnye pesen nenen mmg maveles. kadang2 lame sgt smpai penat dibuatnye. kalo awak tu baby nenen dok diam je, mak redho baring skali xgerak mane2. tp memandang kan awak tu dh besor, nenen pon xbole dok diam, lame plak tu, mak mmg kne protes. last2 bancuh fm gak. husband ckp mayb susu skit tu yg amik masa skit die nk puas/kenyang. iskkkk.. mcm dh nk expired dah gayanya.

apa2 pon, im trying my best for my child. kalo masih ade susu, aku xmalas2 nk kasi dian. aku sendiri mcm xbole nak imagine kalau dian dh xmelekat kat dada aku lg. mcmane la perasaan tu nnt. being a mom ni mmg pelik2. sekejap ckp xsabar nye nk berpisah katil dgn anak sbb nk tdo berdua je dgn husband. sekejap kang ckp im gonna miss sleeping with my baby, feeding her when she's thirsty yada yada yada.. tah ape la name simptom nye ni..

eh, bile dh tulis pjg2 baru sedar mcm karangan xserupa tajuk. ape plak time to wean her off? blom wean lg kan kirenye ni? baru kasi fm. huhuhu.. sorry..

nnt bebile aku sambung borak lagi ye..

babai.

footnote : my pray and thought goes to the missing passengers and pilots of MH370. im not gonna believe in any speculations. my faith is all in Allah. He knows everythng. and this lost wont come for free. we are being tested. dont spread rumours. if u are not part of the search team, pls do ur part as a muslim.