if only i can do everything on my own

while i am enjoying my me-time tying up ribbons for my invitation cards, this eventually came across in mind..

if only i can do everything on my own..

having only less than 3 months to go until the day i've been dying to go through in my whole entire life, seriously its making me nervous more n more.

honestly, everything is all under control at this very moment. alhamdulillah, setakat ni i've no problem with all of my vendors. 

but again,

if only i can do everything on my own..

msti i xpanik sgt. i dont hv to worry about my baju, neither my pelamin or even my cards. bende yg i sgt2 risau are if my things xdpt siap on time n xjd exactly mcm yg dh dijanjikan. n yes,

if only i can do everything on my own..

i will only have myself to put on blame. only i know how far is my expectation. jeez.. mintak simpang. i really dont want to play all these blame games. im having faith in my vendors. yupp, perhaps i am over reacting. insyallah, semua akan ok. 

if this normal guys??