ramadhan & augustus 9 = hari yg suram

i even posted it on my fb status. hari ni i super down. saw a potential clutch for hantaran but financially, it broke my heart. its not about the price, its not about the figure. but its about me. my money. -_-"

masalah yg xmungkin dpt dibantu oleh sesiapa. again, its about me. nk kate panic attack tu xjgak. im breathing, as fine as normal. tp mengenangkan hari raya yg bakal menjelang, birthday azam just around the corner and 4more months until the big day, aku rasa haru. 4 bulan = 4 kali gaji. 

despite keharuan and bulan ramadhan, some preparations masih berjalan. puasa xmembatas kan aku utk membuat keputusan. i've followed up couple of things during the first week of puasa.

1. i managed to get contact with my mini pelamin vendor for my house. im not an expert and obviously im a first timer. i asked few friends and finally i asked the vendor herself. agak2, when is the best timing for me to see her and discuss about the color n theme n everything? she said next month would be good so next month it is.
2. settled on baju azam's design n currently waiting for the final quotation from wp. yes, azam akan pakai baju baru. i jeles sangat. but xpela, i dh terlalu miskin utk memikirkan tentang kehendak sendiri. mujur i xpnah ade angan2 for my baju kahwin. yg penting pakai baju n baju tu mmg baju kawin. titik. so, as soon as we received the quotation, azam n i tinggal bagi cue for them to start tailoring.

so, that was last week. minggu ni kerja sedikit tenang. no more big meetings so by right, i shouldve exhale as looong as i want. i rase the more we think about the wedding, the more problem will occur. yes, i masih belum sampai tahap stress. cume sedikit kacau dibuai perasaan sendiri.

sebenarnye, i sgt la xpunya guts utk meminta walaupun dari azam, si tunang ku sendiri. tolong ajar i mcmane caranya. i sedar, i agak reserve bile part nk bgtau org i xde duit. rela duduk rumah je xkeluar. tp bile ade duit, mcm nk belanja org as though as aku org paling kaya. nope, kurang arif meminta2. cara i meminta sgt sarcastic. arghh.. benci! sigh.

however, hari i hari ni diceriakan oleh vendor invitation card. even semalam pun mereka dh mencube. they've finally sent me the draft. sgt laju i must say. seingat i, i baru je submit map i pada diorg last week. around 30th of july mcm tu n smlm diorg dh buat kan draft. i dont know if its normal but im happy with the progress. ngeee.. 

the first draft mmg ade byk silap. well, its the first n its fasting month. mereka mungkin tersilap n i pun dgn senyuman memaafkan. n then about 1pm hari ni they sent me the new draft. the amended one. alhamdulillah its much better dari yang sebelumnya.. its yet to be approved sbb still ade silap dari segi tatabahasa. i'll amend it tonite. as soon as i receive any comment from azam.

check out hasil map yg i lukis. hohoho.. mengade nye i untuk berperasaan bangga melihat hasil lukisan sendiri menjadi bentuk yg lebih di fahami. haha.. yes, ade touch i sendiri utk kad jemputan i ni. well, thats the happy part for today. cepat la jam pkul 4. i want to go home... =(