dear june..

jumuah mubarakah!!!

TGIF n TGIJ (Thank God Its June)

sebelum kite mula dgn lebih jauh, mari kite mulakan dgn assalamualaikum warahmatullahiwabarakatuh!

ending my 17th weeks n entering my 18th weeks next week. owh, blom pnah dlm hidup rase nye kerja i membilang minggu. tp memandangkan ada manusia hidup didalam perut, harus la i countdown jangka hayatnya. 

seriously, i asyik ternangis2 mengenangkan dia. how i wish he can one day feel that he's one lucky child to me and azam. sumpah i ckp, i xtakut sakit bersalin. ape nak jadi pun jadi la. tp i sgt takut nk menempuh alam parenthood. am i ready for it? will i be able to give him all the attentions he need? i slalu fikir yg i myself pun blom sempurna, ini kan nk melukis warna di kain kosong seorg hamba Allah yg bakal lahir. promised to each other that our baby's life will be much2 better than our's. azam said we can do it. convinced by a colleague that Allah knows that i can n that is why this"life" is sent to be inside me.

bercakap pasal nangis, ntah knp smlm emosi ni sungguh cepat tersentuh. as i am so excited to meet june (actually because i am soooo excited to see my baby on this 7th) azam tetibe ckp yg cina tempat die kje tu request die to be working on the 7th. i've reminded him awal2, tolong bgtau cina tu yg u're not available on thursday. so pls make full use of wednesday or friday or whatever day but not thursday. time tu i pandang je azam with my unhappy face n suddenly my sight became blurry.. owh, air mata ku mule bertakung. tp xla smpai meraung2. luckily my tears xdrop lg sbb azam xhabis ckp pun lagi. he said, he'll get someone to do his job if the cina insist to be working on thursday. phewww..

setelah scene2 menyayat hati tamat, i smbung borak dgn geng mak xbujang. misi skrg, compare set bersalin. xpasal2 i pun dh start survey set bersalin sbb geng i semua dh kearah itu. hihihi.. xpe, at least i'll be prepared early. perut berbunyi n so does azam's. kami keluar mencarik makanan. mlm, hujan renyai2. azam tanye i nk mkn ape. n again, i mintak mkn bergedil. special bukan? hari tu ade jual kt sec24. tp smlm kitorg tgk kedai die pun xbukak.. hati dikuatkan dgn mencari gerai lain. tp yela, katepun hujan. mestila diorg xbukak kedai kut. tup tup, air mate begenang lagi. i asked azam to ignore me. hikhik.. tp die xignore jgak pun. ade ke die bawak aku pgi carik bergedil kat ayamas? walaupun jauh disudut hati aku nk je ckp "ayamas jual ayam. mane jual bergedil". tp aku simpan saje hasrat itu. yela, sementara suami tgh berusaha ni kan. tp what do u expect? msti la ayamas xjual bergedil. degil btol. tp comel kan suami ai? akhirnya, i akur.. no bergedil for that nite. azam tanye nk makan ape lain dr bergedil? dan jawapn pun diberi. beli kan aku speket cheezy wedges dan large whipped potato dr kfc.

sungguh funny kan perasaan ibu mengandung. emosi xstabil langsung! tp xpe, i consider myself as normal. sudah la pregnant ni i xde any alahan or morning sickness. always assume that im carrying a little iron man inside of me. body pun masih dikira kurang nampak mcm mengandung (i hari2 pergi kje pakai baju kurung). tp xpe, yg penting baby n me sihat.