time to wean her off

good day everyone..

lame xupdate blog.

skrg baru rase nk update sbb .. aku dah xperah susu lagi. rase nye kali ni official. i can say bye bye to my spectra. weekend ni nak pack masuk kotak. ohhh... how time flies.

alkisah

selama setahun 3bln aku menjadi supplier tunggal susu kepada dian, aku rase skrg mcm mesin dah karat2 skit. dah xbole nk berfungsi dgn baik utk produce susu yg secukup nya utk dian. si dian tu kan dah besor. suke lari sana lari sini panjat sana panjat sini, so she definitely need enough vitamins to keep her going. kesian plak rase kalo die cume ade pilihan susu aku je hari2. skrg aku dh xangkut pam keoffice hari2. ehhh.. bkn skrg. rase nye since few months ago kut. mmg dh xangkut. time kampeni ade nursing room la xnk angkut. time keje kat kampeni yg kne pam kat meeting room kemain gigih. 

so mase xbwk pam tu aku just pam bile dh blk rumah. smpai je rumah, laju2 gi naik bilik utk pam susu. tu pon hasil nye sikit je. kesian dian.. dh la bile aku blk je kemain die mintak dukung mcm dahaga sgt. 

so, i decided to buy her formula milk then. knowing that she sometimes refuse to drink milk with plain milk taste, i decided to try dugro dgn flavor coklat n stroberi. haaa amik.. coklat ade stoberi pon ade. fortunately, dian minum je tanpa prasangka. the night we tested the milk on dian, die minum xhabis pon. aku pon pgi beria buat ikut instruction. 5sudu + 190ml air suam. mmg xhabis la. next day try lg kat rumah mak. mak kate die minum. fuhhhh legaaaaaaaaaa..

mayb sbb siang kne minum fm, so die rindu sgt2 susu mak die yg cap gantung ni. so bile blk rumah je mmg dh xdan nk pam, die dah chop dulu. baru nk bersila amik port nk pam die dh duduk atas lap peluk2. so, paham2 la.. she "miss" me.

so officially aku mmg dh xdan nk pam susu bile blk kje. the only time i may pump ialah diwaktu pagi before kje. tu pon stakat gune manual pam tommee tippee tu je. terus masuk botol. senang. there goes dian's bfast of the day. tp td xbuat pon. kesian dian breakfast susu coklat. 

tp dian ni pe'el nye lately ni satu mcm sikit. bgn pagi dah nak nenen. heyyyy.. terbantut la mak nk siap pgi kje. anak anak.. mak ni pon xsampai hati la nk menolak. layan la 5-10min. n there goes my time n the reason why i sometimes late to work.

during weekend, aku breastfeed dian semampu aku. tp dian pnye pesen nenen mmg maveles. kadang2 lame sgt smpai penat dibuatnye. kalo awak tu baby nenen dok diam je, mak redho baring skali xgerak mane2. tp memandang kan awak tu dh besor, nenen pon xbole dok diam, lame plak tu, mak mmg kne protes. last2 bancuh fm gak. husband ckp mayb susu skit tu yg amik masa skit die nk puas/kenyang. iskkkk.. mcm dh nk expired dah gayanya.

apa2 pon, im trying my best for my child. kalo masih ade susu, aku xmalas2 nk kasi dian. aku sendiri mcm xbole nak imagine kalau dian dh xmelekat kat dada aku lg. mcmane la perasaan tu nnt. being a mom ni mmg pelik2. sekejap ckp xsabar nye nk berpisah katil dgn anak sbb nk tdo berdua je dgn husband. sekejap kang ckp im gonna miss sleeping with my baby, feeding her when she's thirsty yada yada yada.. tah ape la name simptom nye ni..

eh, bile dh tulis pjg2 baru sedar mcm karangan xserupa tajuk. ape plak time to wean her off? blom wean lg kan kirenye ni? baru kasi fm. huhuhu.. sorry..

nnt bebile aku sambung borak lagi ye..

babai.

footnote : my pray and thought goes to the missing passengers and pilots of MH370. im not gonna believe in any speculations. my faith is all in Allah. He knows everythng. and this lost wont come for free. we are being tested. dont spread rumours. if u are not part of the search team, pls do ur part as a muslim. 

mimpi

ok, since kerja mcm dh siap. mood pon still mood kongsi facai, org kt opis ni ade bape ketul je. so aku nk tulis blog la. inspired by kak fillanie so aku pon tulis la entry dgn tajuk yg same. kikiki.. <-- nmpk x? nmpk xbetapa xde kje nye aku.

abt 2days back aku ade mimpi yg pelik. mimpi siang. aku tau org ckp mimpi siang ni mainan tdo. tp kalo betul bagai dikata, errrrr.. agak kasar gak la permainan die. 

last saturday, aku, husband n dian pi bantai tdo siang lepas makan tghari. n suddenly mimpi aku pon bermula. masih fresh wey dlm ingatan. n the story goes like this :

"sedang ku memandu kereta abah ku, saga lama yg kehabisan minyak, aku pon pi singgah petronas nak isi minyak. aku xingat knp tp time tu fikiran ku kusut memikirkan sesuatu. keluar je dari kete, aku cpt2 bukak tank minyak n masuk kan nozzle. aku rase aku gi cashier bayar. n aku bkn jenis yg isi byk. aku isi sepuluh je kut kalo xsilap. sambil tggu isi minyak tu, aku tggl kan nozzle n gi isi air dlm thermos (mimpi kan.. biasa la ngarut2 skit). aku tgk minyak xbenti2 masuk kete. kalo stakat over rm10 tu xpela kan (sbb aku mmg pnah gitu. org tu silap key in kut) tp ni smpai ratus2 (nipu tank saga bole masuk ratus). aku dh cuak. kang xpsl aku kne byr. so aku decide nk chow. pstu tetibe ade pakcik naik beskal approach aku. kat beskal die ade mesin rumput. aku pon mcm alamak pakcik ni. aku nk cpt ni. kang kantoi kete aku isi byk minyak.pakcik tu tanya apsal muke aku kerut2 la, mcm ade mslh la. tp aku abaikan je. aku ckp sorry pakcik nk cpt ni. nak amik mak saya (which aku mmg nk pi amik pon kt umah makcik aku). tp die xstop2 tanye. smpai aku masuk kete pon die follow masuk duduk kt seat penumpang sebelah aku. aku cuak tp aku nk cpt kan takut kantoi. so aku drive. konon nk acah pakcik tu la sbb aku nk jln gak malas dgr pakcik tu ckp. tp die follow gak. die kate asal aku nk elak dr die la ape la. pstu aku ckp aku nk cpt, aku mmg nk kne gi amik mak. pstu aku bwk keta laju wey, cam pelesit. sbb takut bwk stranger. smpai ke destinasi aku keluar kete camtu je. pstu aku patah blk amik handbag n kunci kete. pstu tetibe pakcik tu perasan kt pintu kete tu ade senaskhah al-quran. dia tanye, ini kan ade. knp xbaca bile dlm kesusahan? tau xperasaan ibu mengandung yg tggu hari tp xbersalin2. itu la perasaan al-quran bile xdibaca."

lps tu aku terjaga. see.. nampak xpermainan dia? aku xnmpk. tp aku tau its a reminder for me. alhamdulillah allah kasi aku petunjuk. xkisah la kt mimpi siang ke mimpi malam ke. but its a good call. but unfortunately, aku xbaca2 pon lg. aku selalu jd kan dian as alasan. dh la aku ni jenis tdo awal. tgh borak2 kt group whatsapp pon tetibe bole tdo. kalo time xtdo, dian plak suke nak main mcm2. i can throw u hundreds of excuses tp aku tau, thats not me. aku yg salah. xtry harder to find time. ingat baca yasin tiap2 mlm jumaat dh cukup? 

aku cite kt husband psl mimpi ni. hangin die nk tggu ending. die ingat ade climax kete meletup ke, pakcik tikam ke ape. kikiki.. sorry ar, mimpi ni mmg pelik. aku sndiri pelik.

nak baca lagi mimpi pelik aku? ok, aku klasifikasi kan mimpi ni ber-rated seram komedi. i'll make it short i promise. aku tulis the climax je kayh?

"malam tu ade pontianak kt umah aku. die nyorok kt bilik blkg umah mak aku. aku try2 intai. skali die ikut. aku cpt2 masuk bilik mak aku n tutup pintu kuat2. pontianak tu xleh nk masuk. lantas die pon masuk kan rambut die yg pjg mayang mengurai tu kt celah bwh pintu. takut nye aku nauzubillah! aku tatau nk buat ape. last2 aku nmpk gunting. aku terus potong rambut pontianak tu. from there aku dpt kekuatan bile tau pontianak tu mcm takut. pstu aku pon bukak pintu smbil tgn pegang gunting. aku ckp kt pontianak tu, meh sini ko!!!! meh sini!!!! meh aku botak kan rambut ko tu.. mehh!!!! pstu pontianak tu lari"

the end.

first entry in 2014

bapak ar.. dah dekat 2minggu (update : bln 2. sbb time type ni dok simpan dlm draft tah bape lame) baru nk tulis satu entry..

errr.. excuse cara bagi salam saya ye..

hello 2014!!! 2weeks (update : 1month) of 2014 has been good to me. alhamdulillah.. walaupun sejak kebelakangan ni dian kerap sakit but its ok. 

dah sebulan (2bln) kerja tempat baru. boleh la skit2 membiasakan diri. still dependant pada staff lain especially when it comes to construction terms yg aku langsung xpnah memahami (n skrg nk cube fahami pon aku xnk sbb mcm tah hape2 sgt). but i guess i'll master it one day. jenuh aku tanye org, mcmana kau boleh begitu excel hafal semua benda? like binatang ni utk ape, binatang ni utk ape n so n so?

ohh well, aku bkn nye tuhan nak terel sesuatu bende dgn sekelip mata kan? bagi la aku masa skit. insyallah, berkat doa aku nk jd pekerja bertanggungjawap musti akan berjaya (padahal skrg sebenornye aku ade lg kje yg blom siap. tp tersinggah blog sendiri maka terasa nk tulis sepucuk entry. dengan harapan agar khatam lah kali ni)

alang2 tu aku sebenarnye nk review skit psl klinik adek dekat sec9, shah alam. last week for the very 1st time azam n i took dian to see the infamous doctor amdan (seperti yg digembar gembur kan oleh ibu bapa di shah alam khususnye) before ni mmg aku pnah ade attempt nk bwk dian ke situ. tp selalu je tutup. sebelum aku kawin pon aku pnah pondering. klinik ni asik tutup je xpnah nye aku tgk die bukak.

knp bwk dian gi klinik? dian sakit ape? begini ceritanya.. masa amik dian kt rumah mak ari tu, aku dapati mata dian bertaik dgn byk skali. dlm hati aku ckp "eh, ini penyakit baby2 ni. dian dh bkn baby asal sakit macam ni lg?" so sbb kn "baby" td lah aku start risau. to me, dian dh terlalu tua utk punyai mata bertaik mcm anak kucing. that nite, aku try bubuh susu aku. klaka ok nk picit susu badan dkt anak yg dh xbrape nk baby. dimarah nye aku. ngamok2 la nganga2 mulut nk tadah nenen. msti die pelik apsal mak sondol kt mata plak ni? kat mulut la mak!!!! kat mulut!!!!

tp pagi tu, dian struggle nk bukak mata. maklum lah, dh kne gam dgn taik. kesian sgt tgk nye. kalo mase baby msti la die mcm oooo mata xbole bukak, ok tdo. ni dh besar ok. msti die panic. ohhhh.. syahdu. ape yg aku n husband bole buat cuma lah basuh muke die skali dgn mata2 dia. alhamdulillah, boleh buka. mendapat suami yg extra paranoid ni mencabar ok. aku pon xpasal2 join menggeletar. sedih tgk anak mata bengkak. so pagi tu msg boss bgtau yg aku masuk lambat skit nk bwk anak gi klinik. doctor kate kne infection. mungkin dian gosok mata kuat sgt smpai luka smpai bole terkena jangkitan. tp doctor impress sbb dian xnangis and aktif walaupun sepatutnya mata die gatal n xmenyelesakan. kekekeke.. dian kan.. HULK!

overall, im so happy to see the doctor at klinik adek. awal2 tu mcm rase awkward plak. dh la sebelum bukak dh beratur org kt depan pintu. bile nk register pon kne beratur lg. mak pak sebut number lepas tu org tu amik berat n suhu on the spot. aku yg 1st time ni hegeh2 isi borang. dekat klinik tu ade play area. so dian pon main dgn damai nya. bile nama dian kne pggl, kami pon masuk ke treatment room. to my surprise, treatment room die sgt santai. xde makna meja doctor kt tgh2 bilik. kite kne duduk ngadap2 doctor mcm main catur. no such thing. masuk bilik doctor mcm masuk umah org. ade sofa, ade meja tgh yakni meja pemainan budak2. doktor nye duduk kt meja ujung tu yg ala2 mcm meja belajar. bile kite masuk die attend kite mcm tetamu umah die (cume slack nurse xhidang kopi dgn biskut je). so bile atmosphere klinik mcm tu, anak pon xjd nk takut. so lepas ni bole dtg klinik adek lagi.

few days later mata dian pon pulih. tp badan dian start demam2. merengek je nk dokong. mak die yg kecik molek ni pon dokong la penuh perasaan. sib baik minggu tu byk cuti so bole la aku berada disisi dian selalu. her temperature was reaching 40 degree mase tu. gi klinik doc kasi ubat bontot. satu mlm tu die siap sampai menggigil2, biru bibir semua. bwk gi klinik doc suh siram gune air sejuk. iskkkk.. time tu dpt byg kan perasaan anak. she tried to reach for me but i cant, baby. gotta let u mandi. i know its cold, but u just have to. haaa.. gitu la monolog dalaman mase tu. dua mlm gak rasanya lumur kan air asam jawa kat kepala dian. syukur alhamdulillah bile lumur air tu dian nyenyak tdo. lepas tu mata bengkak balik. bagi antibiotik, beransur pulih balik. phewwww...

before masuk ubat bontot la ape la, dian sempat lagi join natasha hudson n her clothing label, dreamcloud buat photoshoot. dian mase tu xsehat sgt. lemah la hai muke.. sib baik die xmerengek. cool je. cume xseceria biasa.

errr.. rasenye tu je kut highlight bln satu 2014 ni. nnt kalo ade pape lg kite sambung ye.. ni pon dh pjg bonar ni. 

sekian,

sayonara 2013

Just feel like saying good bye to 2013 now..

sebab 2013 is so generous to me, i look forward for what will happen in 2014. i live the whole 2013 with a beautiful daughter. in 2013, i also made a move in my career. if you read my previous post, guess u know what i mean.

writing this post from a new pc. at a new place which i just been for 3 days n a half. im overwhelmed! I've got a stable platform to stand on. insyallah, will give 110% of my commitment.

my boss is awesome (as at today). i can sense that i can be pretty flexible working with him. n officially i can call myself a Personal Assistant though it is not the term used here. Im blessed! or in another word, i love this job. i like being a PA. why? hurm.. susah kut nk elaborate. but i just love it la.

everyday i'll wake up at 6am. perform my subuh n get dress. kat sini baru la berbaloi nk dress cantik2 (tp tatau la kalo dh lame2 penyakit malas aku dtg menjengah). but mak always pesan, its important for me to carefully jaga my image. oh well, will see. at 7.15am, i'll leave the house n send dian to mak's. so far everything went well. the traffic is not so bad. cume nak balik la hazab skit cause dpn office ni jem nauzubillah. but as long as i got home before maghrib, thats fine with me.

hurm.. ape lg ye. tu je kut yg teringat. the biggest moment happened to me this year. job hopping, n dian. lenlain mcm biase je.

perhaps i'll post anither entry with photos of 2013.

till then,

babai!!!

what a great news to start my week!

Assalamualaikum!

Monday blues anyone? not for me.. minggu ni last aku kje kt my current company. my replacement pon ade ni haa so aku kne la start ajar dia itu ini. hand-over task ni, sap sap soi je.. so thats why, i decided to blog a bit of my happy feeling today.

Apart from my enthusiast of starting my new job at the new company, tetibe pagi ni i saw something that i dont quite expect..

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Dian's face is on natasha hudson's instagram yaw!!!!!! 

this participation is 100% dedicated to my mom who've been very upset of things almost similar about a month ago. 

"see mak, its your grand daughter!!!"

lump sump story about dian

holla everyone!!! assalamualaikum..

its friday again.. pejam celik pejam celik, dh nk smpai end of november. as i am very look forward for december, i do still hope the time can slow down a lil bit. tah la, kalo aku jadi masa aku pon pening. kjap suruh cpt kjap suruh slow. 

december ni aku akan start kje baru. yg kje skrg ni, sempat kje for 2 bln lebih je. i dont how its gonna be at the new place. location wise, lebih jauh n time wise, lebih advance dr skrg. i hope i can make it a habit to be at oasis damansara on time. im yet to discover hows the traffic's like pergi dan balik. i can imagine pergi but i cannot imagine balik. according to my adik who's currently doing his practical study at the club saujana, the traffic flow during after office hour is baddddd.. dayummmm..

anyway, senanye nk cite psl my bfeeding journey. dah setahun i bfeed dian. n its going to be setahun jgak dian had exclusive breast milk throughout her life. masa dian dlm hari hari tu ade jgak campur susu enfagrow a+. tp lps dh cukup sebulan, i determined to give her just breastmilk 100%. until now, i did it!

Alhamdulillah, Allah permudahkan perjalanan untuk supply only breastmilk to dian. i may not be able to do it without His will. knowing me, aku mmg xde sebarang effort or what so ever utk memperbanyak kan susu. i eat what i want i drink what i want. actually ade jgak la try minum choc drink lunatots tu. tp rase nye mcm xberapa nk ade beza je. 

mase bulan ke 2 hingga bulan 6/7 mcm tu mmg susu byk. smpai berlebih2 stok. lps tu i resigned n xde lg stok sbb xpam. mmg kalau kt rumah, liat btol nk pam susu. hishhhh.. bad mom. skrg, as i work in this current place, aku cume pam sekali je iaitu sblm blk. dlm pkul5 lebih jgak. tu pon aku cume dpt average 8oz. kalau bertuah sbb terminum air byk ke ape dpt la 9 or 10.

honestly, im ready to face the fact that dian may need to start accepting other milk than just mine. slalu kak umi cerita kalau hari dian byk minum susu, 8oz yg aku bekal kan tu xcukup. n sometimes dian kne minum botol utk tdo. so kak umi just isi air kosong dlm botol n dian minum smpai tertidur. kesian kan? sedih sgt bile cube nk byg kan. mcm sengkek sgt mak dian ni. kedekut! taik idong masin!

more or less a week to go until i start my new job which i consider to have lesser time to be spent with dian, aku mmg dh ade susu lactogen on stand by. actually its my nephew's but aku dh ckp dgn kaklin, in case dian may need to drink more milk, i mintak permission nk try test skit. sementara tu, pemerahan susu insyallah akan tetap diterus kan. 

weekend ni nk cube jgak perah susu mcm biase. bole la buat bekal skit2 utk dian kan. hopefully selagi masih boleh dian minum breastmilk, breastmilk la. susu lain,pilihan terakhir.

syukur sbb punya kesempatan bfeed anak. i really enjoy nursing dian. dpt belai her soft skin n play with those tiny little fingers adalah ultimate bless! kadang2 dian akan look at me in the eyes n i cant figure out what she had in mind but its pure pleasure. kadang2 die tepuk2 perut, gosok2 dahi, the best cuddle ever. dian xreti selak baju lg. mmg la style die minum tu pelbagai, but so far she wont do crazy action tricks bile ade org memandang ke ape. she's behaving well alhamdulillah.

in terms of health, syukur alhamdulillah, dian xpnah sakit yg teruk2 n berpanjangan. minor fever n flu ade but very minimal. tatau la kut itu side effect breastmilk or mmg rezeki dian berkesihatan baik. she's one active n happy baby. lebih byk gelak dari merengek. something that makes me smile every time. 

her appetite, sonang yo.. dian dh bole mkn nasik. kalo kt rumah mak aku, ape yg anak buah aku mimi tu mkn, itu la yg die mkn. kalo nasi dgn kicap n telur, nasik dgn kicap n telur la yg dian mkn. she's very simple. n i can tell that she love to eat nasi lemak n nasi ayam. mungkin sbb dua nasik tu flavoured kan. at the moment, dian dah ade 10 gigi nak masuk 12 sbb gigi depan atas die almost penuh. she has no problem with chewing sbb dah ade gigi geraham atas kat blkg.

besides walking fast and "buldozing" whatever she sees in front of her (not quite good at controlling her break system, yet) dian dh start ckp few words. die akan ckp "nak" bile die nak sesuatu. "taknak" bile taknak. n "lagi" when she want something more. n dian pon tau sebut ayah n tau pada siapa nk sebut ayah tu. n of cz la to her ayah kan. mak? not chet.. xpnah dgr pon die pggl aku mak. biase kalo die nk aku die merengek je. but ayah, byk kali die sebut. aku xkecik ati. die sebut ayah with the right meaning, nak, xnak n lagi with the right meanings pon aku dh seronok yg hamat. 

her current obsession, water. pantang woo tgk air. msti die nk gi bersiram. kalo kite ckp jom mandi, die akan dtg kt kite smbil tarik2 baju die. i bought her a small pool mase birthday die hari tu. n she just loveeeeeeee to be inside there. makin kite kate ok dah jom masuk, makin die baring2 dlm pool tu. even when the pool is empty, die akan duduk dlm pool tu.

im happy to see dian's development as it is. dian xobses to tablet computer, or any cartoon series. she just enjoy being herself. sometimes she sings, she dance, she laugh, ikut suke hati die. main sorg2 pon xpe. im in no hurry to see dian achieving anything ASAP. dulu mase aku kecik2 aku sonok je explore new things sndiri. mak aku busy kje. so kalo die cuti die bwk aku gi kompleks pkns naik bas mini. xde plak die train aku tgk flash cards ke ape. but again, its the quality time that matter. kalo anak happy and rase diappreciate, she'll learn faster in a happy n healthy way. but i realize, my method cant be implemented 100%. world nowadays is fast, tough, mean n cruel. so aku xnak dian ketinggalan. insyallah kalau mase dh tiba aku akan expose kan dian dgn ape2 yg aku rase necessary. skrg nk biar dian main dgn imaginasi.

all and all, i pray nothing but only the best for dian. whenever we are apart, i leaves dian to Allah. mohon tuhan lindungi n kasihani dia. she's everything to me now n i cant imagine a day without her smiles.

Dian Medina First Ever Birthday

Assalamualaikum!!!!

guess who is turning one? its Dian Medina's first birthday celebration ever. alhamdulillah, dh setahun umur anak dara kesayangan. dh besor pjg dh rase nye. bile pakai kan die tshirt, tights n bag, dh mcm budak skola plak dah.

last Tuesday (pdhal esok dh nk tuesday blk) 5th nov 2013, we threw her a party to celebrate her special day. maka bermula dian hidup dlm usia ber "tahun". sebelum ni kire bulan je. now its the end of it. kalo org tanye how old is your daughter, mak jawap setahun je. psni 2thn, pstu 3thn dan seterusnya.

so last tuesday, party started at 4pm. sebelum tu mmg berdoa sakan la semoga xujan. alhamdulillah hujan cume skit je. tp rupenye jampi aku terlebih kuat bile lepas tu lame xujan. hehehe.. thanks allah.

k la, lets just let the photos do the talking. many thanks to those who came n wished. and for the presents too.. dian suke semua. thank u thank u thank u..

pre-party

party

post party

selain birthday dian, kitorg jgak ade celebrate belated birthday my brother, birthday my cuzen yg kebetulan sama dgn birthday dian n birthday my sister which will be on this coming 13th.

cakes and candy buffet were from cty's choc. she's a friend yg sgt creative. overall im so happy with the outcome. love the cakes especially dian's. it turns out super duper cute. suke tahap gaban. thanks anis kerana merealisasikan kek idaman.. =P

lollipop themed butterscotch cake. walaupun fondant but fondant die xla terasa fondant sgt. fondant yg lembut so acceptable. nice color n decoration. suke sgt!!!!

rainbow cake with m&m's n kitkat. kaklin, alip n elya mmg btol2 surprise. glad they like it.

for goody bag, i gave my guest something useful. So everytime when they use it they'll remember "ohhh, this is from dian". kebetulan it came in many eye popping color. harga pon reasonable. so i gave them this..

plate n cutlery set from ikea. hino cake, lollipop and chocolate ape tah. i packed it in an ikea ziplock plastic bag too supaya guest bole pakai blk plastic bag tu. 

sorry xbrape byk gambar. i was busy melayan tetamu. xsempat nk amik gambar menu yg dimasak sendiri oleh mak. mak masak laksa, nasik lemak with ayam goreng rempah, ade kuih muih, pulut kuning n thats pretty much all. mak mmg awesome bab memasak. my tetamu really enjoy their nasi lemak. balance makanan lepas party pon almost xde. means sume licin. mak sampai masak sambal 2round. 

perasaan buat birthday party anak; happy xterhingga. tgk la muke dian masa kek cutting tu. priceless. 

i am still grieving

i lost my phone.

to those yg ade fb or ig aku kompom dh tau. xtau mcmane nk express kesedihan dlm hati. kesedihan ni got nothing to do with the wtv contacts or photos or videos or wtv things i have inside the phone. but i feel so sad sbb hp tu aku dpt sempena my previous birthday. blerghhhhh.. xpenah rase down berhari2 utk bende yg aku hilang se lama ni.

i lost the phone on sunday n skrg wednesday pon xdpt nk jumpe lg. mungkin ke phone tu skrg ade kt tgn org lain? tuhan je yg tau. tp kalo ikut kan, hp tu hilang kt rumah. so, i still hope yg hp tu masih bertuan kan aku instead of org lain. 

selama kehilangan handphone tu, mulut ni xlekang berdoa mintak supaya Allah temukan balik aku dgn phone tu. hahaha.. to that extend! but seriously, i want it so bad. kalo ade org offer beli phone baru pon blom tentu aku nak. aku nak phone aku yg tu balik. that samsung s4 yang mak aku beli dgn adik2 aku for my birthday kat kedai kat subang..

ntah knp phone tu slalu je kenakan aku. about a month ago die buat prangai xbole di-charge. tp aku semangat n gagahi jgak hantar die gi service. gado2 aku laki bini. ni bile dh elok hilang plak. i cant stop blaming myself. if only u knew how much effort my mom made to get me the phone. utk seorg mak yg berumur 55thn dan ade anak lain aku rase mcm touched jgak la. 

i told mak how bad i felt towards the lost. mak kate org xde akal je yg purposely hilang kan brg die. mak kate its ok. brg tu pon tuhan pinjam kan utk kite pakai. but mak, hp tu hilang sbb fira careless, bongok pi xingat phone tu letak mane.

have tried few doa n tips kawan bagi utk menjumpakan barang hilang. tp still no signs of having it back. xpela, kalo ade rezeki ade la. kalo x, aku redhoooooo.. T_T

last posing dgn phone tu..

mintak doa skali ye kut2 kite doa reramai Allah terbukak ati nk pulang kan phone tu kat i. #lapairhingus