today, i is sad..

monday blues strikes!

arghhh.. xsuke la check up in monday. dh la liat nk masuk opis. pstu dpt plak berita yg kurang senang mase pgi check up td. so, yeah.. i is sad..

cam pelik plak hari ni. biasenye pagi2 isnin babycenter akan bagi email remind me about my weekly progress. tp tggu punye tggu, xde plak. doc pun ckp im still in my 33 week. kalo ikut percaturan i, today i supposed to enter my 34th week. weird eh..

but anyway, pagi2 td dh excited nk jumpe doctor. i really look forward to see my daughter's progress. praying hard that she's doing ok. n alhamdullilah, she is ok. of course setiap kali check up akan dimulakan dgn menimbang berat badan. regularly i'll just gain 0.5-1kg. but hari ni i gained 2kgs in 3weeks (according to my counting) / 2weeks (according to the doctor's counting). yg mane satu btol pon aku xtau la. but of course kalo ikut counting doctor, peningkatan itu adalah tidak sihat. pk logik pon bole tau. 2weeks = 2kgs? 

ok, dh la berat naik. suami plak ringan plak mulut die sebut pasal injection kancing gigi. so mendapat la i sebijik..

sib baik i jenis xtakut jarum walaupun jarum die agak kasar la jgak. effect pon i mcm rase xrase sgt je lagi. doc kate might as well cucuk hari ni cause in 2weeks time (mase next check up) nk kne buat ujian MGTT. gosh... menyesal xjage mkn. i yakin i xde kencing manis ke ape. but i just gained weight sbb terlebih mkn. i perasan tu. i mmg mkn byk. arghhhh... menyesal. 

walaupun ditenangkan oleh suami dgn mengatakan bahawa ape yg terjadi or bakal terjadi adalah yg terbaik for me n the baby, i still rase down hari ni sbb my record dh rosak! my graph dh xcantik. iskkkk.. ini la yg i selalu risau kan. kat hujung2 cani la mcm2 bole jd. takut oiii.. mintak2 la next check up berat xnaik. kalo naik pon biar la 0.5 je. 

dh la, bnde dh jadi.. nk buat camno. but masih bersyukur DD di posisi yg betul. air ketuban pon masih byk. berat die pon doctor kate cantik cume kepala die je sedikit besar. hekkkk.. DD is 2.3kg hari ni. according to the doctor, insyallah kalau dlm mase sebulan maybe berat boleh capai 3.3kg. well, kite tgk la cane nnt. im gonna start my diet regime for sure. hope DD can just adsorb whatever nutrition yg i dh ade. plus the obimin plus, i hope that will be enough.

errr.. DD, mak bukan xsyg kamu org xnk kasi kamu mkn byk tau. tp mak nk make sure that i'll get to deliver u perfectly. i'll take a very good care of u, insyallah. DD jgn mintak makanan yg byk fat lagi ye psni..