sayang anak timang-timang kan

jumuah mubarakah!

today nk ngadu pasal perasaan diri sendiri bile pk kan ttg anak sendiri. honestly, since dh jd mak ni emosi jadi cpt sgt tersentuh. i remembered listening to one of my boss's story about his illness. mmg begenang air mata. xbole control walaupun hakikat nye i fikir "xkan la gua nk nangis dpn boss kut?!" i've tried to hold back, tp xbole. same la kalo dgr cerita2 lain yg shocking, i mmg xbole tahan. sbb tu la, i mane tgk kisah arwah adik adam ape tu name die? video amah baling anak tu pon i xtgk. xpela, i tau perasaan mak ayah anak2 tu. tp i xpayah tgk pon xpe.

actually i started to trigger abt today's feeling pagi td. mase tu nak amik susu dian from the freezer utk dibawak ke rumah mak. i kire2 total tinggal 10botol je (sbb skrg i dh increase kan isipadu from 3oz to 4oz per bottle since demand dian dh meningkat) n for today's pnye kegunaan i stok kan 8 botol. tp mengenang kan stok beku ade 10 saje i started to ponder, what will happen to dian if suddenly anything bad happen to me? nauzubillah, i know.. just what if.. maka, i start la terpandang2 muke budak kecik tu. sayu rasenye.. mcmane la org bole sanggup buang anak tu. baby tu kan comel. nak buat ape pon xbole. unless la ko buang die reti pukul nyamuk sendiri, carik susu sndiri. ni diorg ape pon xreti. 

ok, back to dian. i noticed that dian skrg dh pandai knal mak die. skrg ni start la tekenang yg i sometimes marah die sbb nangis xtentu pasal. kesian kan.. tantah die sekadar nk bermanja. i cant imagine a day without her voice, her touch. so i pray real hard for god to not to keep us apart. mase tuka lampin dian smlm pon i terfikir, one day, she gonna grow up n get married. i bkn xkasi, but things are going to get change. n can i handle the changes then? allahualam.. skrg i dh paham perasaan mak2 yg menangis meraung bile anak diorg mati dlm accident ke ape bile tgk berita. i might do the same kalo bnde tu terjadi pada i. ya allah, tolong la pjg kan umur kami anak beranak.. 

even yesterday mase dlm kereta, otak i ni tetibe je terfikir yg i rase mcm xnak beranak lagi. sbb kesian kan dian. hahaha.. dian is my precious skrg ni. will do anythng for her. kalo bole xnk die sakit sikit pon. kecuali la kalo sakit for good kan. contoh mcm kalo kne cucuk tu, i always reminded her to stay calm cause its nothing. cume satu suntikan yg sekejap. so she got to be strong.

overall, im not a paranoid mom. dian dh merasa mcm2 such as honeystar, red velvet's cream and alhamdulillah die ok je. i xberniat buruk. i just nak kasi die rase mknan yg sedap. n nope, i bkn kasi die mkn. i kasi die rase ye.. rase.. cume itu la, i dont want anythng bad to happen to her. everytime buat susu dian (expressing myself) i akan start kan dgn doa. moga2 i bole catch up blk produce more stocks for dian. she's growing up with my milk so im proud of her. die berat ke ringan ke thats all because of my milk. i hope she likes it n can get all the benefit out of it. insyallah..

dian plak is an easy baby. so far dian xpnah demam. alhamdulillah.. die pon sgt mudah n stakat ni menerima ape yg kitorg buat dgn die tanpa merengek ke ape. contoh mcm pakai headband, unlike some babies i used to know, kadang2 xsuke letak pape kt kepala diorg tp alhamdulillah dian ok je. selagi org xcabut, selagi tu la die pakai. n that makes her even cuter. pakai safety belt kt stroller pon die redhooo je..  syukur anak ku xmenyusahkan.

glad that now dh pon pkul 2pm. berapa jam je lagi utk berjumpe blk dgn dian. lps tu esok cuti n hooray!!! more time to spend with dear dian.. *terus gembira pk kan esok*

i doa kan supaya sume mother daughter n mother son out there akan bersama2 mengerat kan silaturrahim bersama anak masing2. especially utk diri sndiri, even though berat dh over 8kg, i dont mind to carry her around where ever i go. she's more than any coach or LV or gucci. she's dian. made by god through me n husband. be proud of your own product. yeah oh yeah..

dian - made with love..

thursday ramble

assalamualaikum.. its thursday, spent half of the day in the meeting room jotting down some notes. bosan, sgt bosan.. just had my lunch of karipap. again, karipap. hari2 pon aku mkn karipap. tp karipap hari ni different. n nope, im not talking about those small standard size karipap yg jual 5 dua inggit tu.. normally i'll buy giant karipap at my office ni. its yummy, seriously.. its big, mengenyangkan dan sedap. pnah mkn karipap inti rase mcm satay? well, its here baby.. i get to eat it everyday! reason suke mkn karipap saje, sbb ianya handy. xkecah2. mkn pakai satu tgn je. pstu bole pura2 busy. ngeh2.. tp this morning mase otw to work, a banner with "karipap gedabak" written on it caught my attention. so hubs make a u-turn. yes, he knew about my passion on karipap since like ages ago. stall tu mmg jual karipap *duhh..* n gedabak *longer duhhhhhhh* besides the size, karipap yg dia jual tu pon comes with various flavor! ok, ini menarik.. i tgk ade perasa crab n cheese, macaroni n cheese, chicken, pizza, beef.. interesting kan? so i bought two. the regular chicken karipap n pizza karipap. hoihhh.. sedap i tell u.. dh la rm2.50 je satu. ko tggu bro.. esok aku gi beli lagi.. hehehe..

fuohhh.. pjg membebel pasal karipap.

NEXT!!!!

suami ku dh blk.. perasaan.. sgt gumbira!!! rasenye seperti hidup ku kembali bersinar. hahaha.. so last tuesday i took an annual leave semata sebab nk amik die kat airport. ok, tipu.. aku gi bwk dian check 3bln jgak. suppose our appointment 9hb hari tu tp doctor dian plak cuti so i decided to rearranged the appointment instead of taking the jab dari doctor lain. so, last tuesday it is.. al-kisah.. di demc, the mom yg kne timbang anak sendiri kt penimbang tu. dah 2kali buat so far masih goyang la kut2 mate ni kero xreti tgk number ke kan.. but i xla sekero itu.. alhamdulillah before this berat dian mmg increase 1kg a month. but last tuesday, the scale showed that dian's weight is 8.1kg. gulp.. *padahal mmg dh expect dh*. masuk jumpe doctor, memule die excited. pstu, die mcm xpercaya sbb dian baru 3bln. die pnye xpecaya smpai die pgi timbang sendiri kt luar. haaaa kau.. sah2 jarum tu benti kat 8.1. so now, its official. dian berberat 8.1kg dan berketinggian 65cm. rasenye i dh bole redhoo bahawa anak i bakal lebih besar dari i. according to the doctor dian is not fat or overweight. but still, her graph xsama dgn yg spatut nye. instead of the normal graph, graph dian narrow sebab kenaikan nye mendadak. but her health plus her BMI is perfectly normal. alhamdulillah..

eh chopp, td xhabis cite pon pasal kepulangan yg dinanti tu.. on tuesday, aku loner bwk triton suami ke airport. itu pon atas request si suami sndiri. drpd takut nk bwk kete lori tu, akhirnye berjaya jgak. msti suami ku bangga. keh2.. and at last, kete tu jd transport utk angkut air zam2.. berguna kan? perasaan nmpk suami kt airport, rase mcm menang motor (???) hahaha.. dh agak dh ia akan menjadi moment awkward. i just passed him by je sbb nk gi salam pak metua. smbil tu husband sibuk load brg dlm kete. pstu gi jumpe die cium tangan n thats it.. hidup berjalan seperti biase. anyway, bersyukur die selamat pulang. itu yg paling penting.

jadi, smpai disini la saje ye omelan utk hari ni.. boleh tahan pjg gak rase nye.. insyallah kalo ade pape yg best nk diupdate, i'll update. but most likely it'll b about dian, about my family. harap maaf kalau xmenarik perhatian anda.. =)

tepek gambar dian buat kenang-kenangan

independent mom

hi everyone, i am an independent mom. not yet a super mom tp cume sekadar mak yg single to raise her daughter without the assistant of her husband. i've been living 11days and 12nites without husband. tidak la selama mereka2 yg on LDR tp its long enough for me.

alhamdulillah, suami dpt rezeki utk ke tanah suci. i feel so happy for him. although die just pergi dgn family die (his parent n sisters, all 7 of them) without me n dian, i rase mcm berbaloi effort mereka sekeluarga dlm mencari rezeki selama ni. im grateful to know that they choose to go to the holy land instead of europe. im grateful mereka xlalai n xlupa dari mana asal rezeki mereka. syukur, sesyukur syukur syukur. hehehe.. insyallah husband kate kalo ade rezeki lagi n dian pon dh besar, die nak bawak kitorg plak utk kesana. yupp, our little family. semoga allah makbul kan doa nya n kabul kan pencarian rezeki kami. ameen..

sepemergian husband kesana, i stay with my mom. i owe my mom alot for helping me out most of the time. managing life with baby adalah susah. mcmane la kalau sorg2 kan.. tp i bertuah sbb mak adalah yg terbaikkk.. i sleep with her every nite. pagi2 i akan memacu kereta suami utk ke tempat kerja. mak will hold dian for me everytime i need my me time. syukur, dian pon xcranky. we occupied most of the days with family activities, like we went to my grandma's house in pj n sleep over for couple of nites, thank god there was a kenduri to attend n my days at the office were also pretty occupied n productive. 

communication with husband while he's at mekah was easy peasy. his hotel lengkap berwi-fi so we just video called each other bile rase rindu (n im the happiest wife bile he do most of the video calls) but the moment he left mekah for medina, our communication mcm susah skit. he only get to call me using his arab number. bayangkan la perasaan i everytime phone ring sambil number yg appear tu adalah international number yg pjg. melompat ok! but still, xpuas bile call biase2 saje. technical problem mcm conversation delay, suara pelahan tu membuat kan ku geram. i can feel that my husband is so far away. so we sms each other kalo nk ckp or update ape2 yg important. *sad*

about dian, so far she's ok. im glad she is. cume the nite azam nk ke medina tu dian mcm cranky skit. rupe2 nye bile husband call pagi tu to let me know that he've arrived, die ckp the whole nite die teringat kan dian. so, no wonder she's cranky too.. i feel so sad for both of them. i mean, thinking of their connection, mcm syahdu sgt. dah la kat medina husband kate tgh musim sejuk n he's feeling feverish. awww... poor my big baby.

ape2 pon, i rase mcm pemergian husband ni is a good exercise for us. ye la, slame ni xpnah berpisah. so bile jauh skit masing2 pon saling rindu each other. then, baru la terase mcm dihargai n disayangi. ohhh.. i feel like crying. now i know i've met my real true love. n kalau ditanye whether i nk berpisah lagi ke x, the answer will definitely be no walaupun semua nya berjalan lancar je spjg ketiadaan die.

n today, i cant wait to have him back. esok, i akan sambut die di KLIA. its gonna b an awkward moment i rase. but a happy moment, im sure..

dian : "ayah, dont leave me!!!"

me n dian's #1 hero.. *miss u much*

wish list

holla!!!! lame gile xupdate blog.. maaf, sibuk dgn kerja. sibuk dgn life. alhamdulillah, sedang menikmatinya to the fullest skrg.

i actually ade gak teringat nk update blog. tp xde topik plak yg nk dikongsi. my obsession, si dian medina of cz.. she is my drug. itu la perasaan bile dh ade anak. feed IG pon gambar dian semata. still blom get over her.. kalo ade sesape yg pnah terfikir "asik post gambo anak je.." dan seterusnya menyampah, i dont need ur judgement to be happy n it dont affect me even a bit with what u think about me.

baiklah, entry kali ni i selitkan sedikit ttg my daughter's milestone. she will be 3months on next tuesday. skrg, die dh pandai roll over dgn sndiri *clap2*, dh xpakai mitten *n smlm baru je scratch her own face while sleeping*, dh pandai giggle mcm baby2 comel tu, dh pandai membebel n, she no longer fit in 3months old baju *sad*. some of the clothes i dh pon put aside. skrg i dnt really fancy buying her clothes anymore unless there's occasion so she need to look cute. apart from that, i just prefer buying her toys n her needs..

ckp psl buying things, im currently look forward utk beli these 2 things. so, bnde 2 ni ade dlm wishlist aku.. tunggu azam blk umrah baru bole pk nk beli.

stroller pad

since stroller dian skrg xber pad so i kesian dgn die. rasenye quinny zapp tu xla keras mane tp mcm xbest je tgk die xterasa empok.. ushar gak stroller pad yg murah2. mcm yg dari babylove pnye, tp smcm xlawa plak. bekenan jj cole tp rase cam utk baby2 sgt. dian dh makin besar so i dont think it will suit her.. last2 suke dgn maclaren pnye stroller pad. tgk features pon mcm bole ngam je dgn zapp.. tp harga die la plak skit mahal.. rm100 ++ for a stroller pad? need further negotiation dgn hubby.

paling murah jual kt mybbstore.com tp design die xlawo. rm103. hurm.. nnt kite usulkan ke husband.

diono - stroller roller

discovered psl stroller roller ni smlm mase meeting (nmpk sgt xfocus pada meeting). its quite pricy but i think its useful utk pengguna quinny zapp xtra cam i.

im sure most mummy or excited-mummy-to-be tau yg quinny zapp xtra ni akan menjadi 2pcs bile dilipat. yes, i hate it too. it'll become a burden kalau kite nk maneuver bnde alah ni seorg diri especially dgn anak kecik lg montel. but as long as hubs or someone is by ur side, rasenye xsusah sgt. the frame, indeed is small. but the seat tu sedikit besar to me. since hubs is driving a 4x4, so i dont see having a big trunk at the back is a good thing utk kami humban kan stroller tu utk kemana2. sudahnye, kami terpaksa pinjam kereta spare family husband kalo nk keluar sbb xnk stroller tu melayang2 dlm trunk atau terpaksa diletak kt seat blkg n end up susah nk letak brg2 lain kalo kami nk bershopping skit. 

so back to the stroller roller by diono.. 

saw it at littlewhiz pricing at RM197.90. to me its practical. kalo nk simpan stroller kt rumah dlm ini pon senang so xde la stroller tu terseparate plus it can keep the stroller clean from dust. dgn stroller roller ni, baru la nampak sinar yg i dont need to buy another stroller kalo nk travel with airplane (tp, bilenye nk travel naik airplane pon) just in case. besides quinny zapp with or without xtra, this roller stroller can also fit peg-perrego, maclaren, n most of other umbrella folded stroller. senang kan?

so, itu la dua bende yg currently i sgt look forward utk beli.. kalau la i berjaya beli, i'll share it here, dont worry..

till then guys..

happy weekend!!!

working mom

still xabis lagi cerita pasal anak.. yupp, masih obsess dgn dian. i guess i'll obsess dgn dian smpai bile2 kut. everytime sebut name die, msti akan terpandang2 muke die. 

being a working mom is not so hard. to be specific, to me sbb i daily send dian to my mom's house. nope, bkn my mom yg jage dian. its kak umi. she's my mom's maid. tp kt rumah mak dh xde bende byk nk buat so die jadi mak asuhan dian plak. overall, i mmg suke kak umi jaga dian. die yg jaga my niece mimi sebelum ni. she's indonesian but she dont speak indo. unlike most bibik2 yg sukar memahami n difahami, kak umi sgt modern dan bijak. i trust her. nk tinggal pesan pun senang. xmemandai2. pendek kate she have a malaysian mind so, thats why i trust her to look after dian while im at work.

another plus point knp i choose to send dian at my mak's place, of course its my mak's place.drpd hntr rumah org, baik hntr rumah mak sendiri tp, bkn mak sendiri pon yg jaga sgt. mak have her own business so she cant take care of dian all the time. mak just monitor je kak umi n sometimes mak buat kje nenek2 spatutnye buat mcm tdo kan dian, mandi kan dian stuff like that.

minggu petama tinggal kan dian dgn kak umi n mak, i mmg rajin call mak. tanye susu cukup ke x, dian buat ape, berak x, bole tdo x, nangis x.. mujur mak layan je call i yg hampir sejam skali tu. hehehe.. 10 markah untuk mak. n pada minggu pertama i tggl kan dian dgn kak umi n mak, dian minum susu up to 7 bottles of 3oz each daily! mase tu i sgt takut xbole catch up utk top up susu dian semasa i berkerja. but alhamdulillah, satu hari 5-6 bottles of 3oz each berjaya diperah while im at the office.

seperkara abt being a working mom : my breastpumps are my bestfriends. love both of them so much. they are my soul! mati hokey kalo breastpump xde. 1. sbb i need to clear my precious boobs when dian is not around or when she refuse to drink her favorite milk. 2. sbb pk dian nnt nk minum ape kalo bkn susu aku. hahaha.. dian dh pandai tolak fm. msti sbb rase. so nk xnk, bekalan susu badan harus la diteruskan sbb kalo x, sape nk jawap kalo minah tu nangis.

i must give credits to both of my bp. alhamdulillah, i made the right choice buying both of them. hubby must be real happy too. sbb segala duit yg dibelanja then, dpt menjimatkan duitnya skrg since we dont need to buy fm for dian anymore..

meet my first life saver..

TT si manual pump hebat..

biar pun xsefamous atau se-high tech sesetengah manual bp seperti avent atau medela harmony, my Tommee Tippee manual breastpump works very well on me. n owh, its cheap too!! with less than rm100, i dpt byk bnde dgn TT manual bp ni. totally berbaloi i beli. 

since i xjumpe byk review psl bp ni, so i refer pada international review saje. ade yg xsuke sbb katenye corongnye besar sgt so it dont fit their boobs. but to me, it fits perfectly je.. no problemas.. parts pun sgt mudah dipasang n dibasuh. its just that the corong are made of rubber so bile nk tanggal kan dr boobs tu rase sedikit pedih cause rubber melekat pada kulit. but alah bisa tegal biasa. skrg dh xrase ape dh. ape yg penting, kebolehan nye mengepam dan plus point diberi kerana ia sgt efficient n langsung tidak memenatkan.

TT manual bp ni i akan pakai pada setiap pagi. dian dh kurang skit minum bile waktu mlm. so by the time waktu pagi, boobs i dh kepenuhan so TT manual bp sedia membantu. i pon dh jd kan routine utk prepare the bp every night. thanks to this purchase jgak la dian skrg gune tommee tippee closer to nature bottles as her daily bottle. alhamdulillah budak kecik tu xbyk songeh n menerima botol TT seadanya. so every morning, pam, cabut botol from BP, tutup gune puting, n ready to serve..

ok, thats it about my manual breastpump. skrg mari share ttg buah ati i yg lagi satu ni plak..

meet gondol si spectra dew 300

i rase sgt berbangga membeli si gondol sbb hari2 die la penyabung nyawa utk bekal kan susu to dian while im at the office. my pumping routine biase nye 2kali sehari. dlm 11am-1pm (tgk bile free. i normally skip my lunch meal) and 4pm-5pm before balik. i sgt2 suke menggunakan si gondol ni sbb i bole pam 2boobs at one time. trust me, pam 2boobs skali sgt menjimatkan mase. production pon bagus. best!

keberatan nye tidak begitu memberi ape2 effect to me. hari2 i pergi kerja berhantar berambil. just letak kt seat blkg n bwk naik opis. xde ape yg menyusahkan langsung. bunyik pun senyap + part utk dibasuh pun sedikit. me likey! fortunately hari tu i managed to get myself a "longchamp" bag yg sgt practical n bole dilenjan n.. its nice too!

this is the things i carry everyday. my bp bag, my cooler bag n my je t'aime tumbler. dlm tumbler tu isi air horlicks yg mak buat sbg milk booster.

overall, im a happy working mom. seronok sgt mase hari tu bwk dian gi check up 2bulan n found out that she's now 6.3kg. start dian 1bulan, i mmg kasi die exclusive breast milk. alhamdulillah.. rezeki. insyallah kalo diizinkan i nk bf dian smpai dian 2thn. seronok tgk achievement anak when she only drinks our susu. the best feeling, indeed.

ops, mase pam dh tibe.. till next time ya'lls!

XO <-- berangan konon aku ni kim kardashian

dian on her two months young birthday..

my own version of pantang

happy saturday!

half day at work, baru smpai opis dh xsabar nk blk. wonder what dian is doing at the moment. the moment i stepped out of the house td, she's still soundly asleep. today, first day i tggl kn die kat rumah mertua. dgn xde warmer nye. i hope they know how to handle dian's ebm. ohhh.. kalo neves sgt nnt blk je la awal. kje pon xbyk ni *pstu ade hati nk siap kan satu entry. siap kan kje terus kan senang. pstu bole stand by blk..*

anyway, lps share pengalaman bersalin skrg ade rase nk share psl pengalaman berpantang plak. 

i pantang 40hari je. well, being a javanesse girl, begitu la. hahaha.. i pilih sape pantang cpt habis. kalo jawa abis dulu, i jawa. kalu melayu habis dulu, i melayu. but pantang melayu ade extra 4hari which to me sungguh lame. so, i ended my confinement n declared its a freedom on the 40th day after giving birth to dian.

alhamdulillah, it has ended safely. my pantang is totally my own version. no such thing as berpilis everyday (but berpilis adalah sgt best kalo rase pening2. recommended ) . bengkung pon kalo rajin je pakai. stokin ape tah lagi. i dont even wear long sleeves ape tah lg sweater. kain batik pon i pakai sekerat jln je. jahitan dh ngam, i terus pakai seluar tdo. tell you, my pantang life adalah sedikit menduga keimanan but syukur alhamdulillah, ia berjaya dikawal. smpai skrg i cume pantang part minum air n mandi air panas. tehehe..

my day one on pantang started at my mak's house. she took care of me very well. makan pon kadang2 bersuap *sbb tgh feed anak*. sampai day 10, i kne transfer rumah my mil. time tu i dh start sembelit n sembelit is the most painful pain i've ever felt. rela lagi bersalin dari sembelit yg sakit nye mau mkn 3-4 hari. dh la mase sembelit tu jahitan blom cure lg. so imagine la. mane nk jage jahitan lg, sembelit lg. goshhhh.. ade satu hari tu i spent almost the whole day in the toilet. anak pon i xusik langsung. gosh.. sembelit mmg la penyakit yg gross tp bersedia la wahai mother-to-be.

since my jahitan took me more than 2weeks to cure, i pon consumed pati ikan haruan dgn harapan dpt menyembuhkan jahitan. i minum sehari sekali n i minum yg polleney pnye. meh sini nk bgtau, rase nye adalah awful. tu pon i panas kan skit dlm warmer anak supaya bile die panas i rase panas n kurang rase payau ubat yg sgt... payau hanyir.. yucks.. tp sbb jahitan i lambat baik, i sgt look forward to drink it sbb i nk baik cpt. n sejurus i finished all the 6 bottles, jahitan i terus baik! kudos pati ikan haruan polleney.. i love u! *tips : nk kasi xmuntah lps minum, minum/mkn bnde masa. i hari tu minum fresh orange/anggur hitam*

ok, rewind ke zaman berurut. i start berurut pada hari ketiga selepas bersalin. n makcik tu urut i for 5days. overall, im very satisfied with her urut n service. she's such a very nice lady n thanks to poyaty sbb kasi contact makcik tu to me. she based in klang n travel daily to shah alam using the komuter train. according to makcik tu, mase pantang anak pertama, dibenarkan mkn semuanya supaya nnt mase anak kedua nnt dh bole tau ape yg bole mkn n ape yg tidak. that means, xsemua org makanan pantang nye same. i remember, satu hari tu i request mak i buat kan potato salad. n pstu, my jahitan mcm sakit gile. so moral of the story, jgn mkn telur. (mmg la xbole mkn patutnye kan. aku plak konpiden gune falsafah makcik urut tu sampai la akhirnye, tanggung la sakit sndiri).

part mkn, the first one week je i btol2 berpantang. lps one week, mcd n kfc pon aku blasah. itu pon sbb mase sembelit tu i was totally flat. nk mkn xde selera. husband tanye nk mkn mcd ke x. n i was like kalo la bole mkn, of cz i nk. dh la sakit, mkn mknan dlm pantang lg, mane la larat oiii.. pstu hubs make an effort finding out why actually xbole mkn mcd. rupe2 nye xde ape2 dari segi kesihatan, cume its oily la. it contain lots of fat. tanggung la kau sendiri kalo gemok. since husband pon kate die redha kalo i gemok, so he bought me mcchicken n there goes my pantang on food, broke by a yummy fast food burger.

btw, i gune set bersalin nona roguy. n ade item dlm tu xberusik langsung. hahahaha.. maaf kan la ye.. membazir sgt nampak nye saye ni. ok, lesson learnt.. anak seterusnye xpayah nk berset pantang sgt lah!

so, what about my baby? she's fine. minum susu seperti biase. awal2 hari tu ade gak kasi die susu formula sbb rupe2 nye susu i xkeluar. itu pon lepas try pam. padan la die ngamok. konpiden je mak nye df padahal susu xde. so beli kan die enfalac a+. lps tu ade satu mlm tu konon rajin la nak try double pumping, galak ni tgk susu byk. pam la sampai kering. budak baru blaja katekan. the next day, anak terus refuse df. nipple dh bertukar wajah ke? so time tu pun kasi dian fm. lps dian dpt tune blk isap my nipple, terus tobat xnk pam. 

about a week lebih before nk habis pantang, i dh start stok up susu. itu pon baru berani gune my manual bp je. alhamdulillah, bole la buat bekalan. tu pon i yakin stok mase pantang tu dh habis dh kne rotate dgn stok skrg. dian is an ebm-olic. 

on dian's 34th day, her majlis akikah pon diadakan. time tu i xdan nk pk doorgift. her cradle pon ala kadar je i buat. ape yg termampu saje la..

alhamdulillah majlis berjalan dgn lancar. pada hari ke 39, dian dicukur kan kepala nye kasi botak..

*my botak chin*

n exactly on last saturday which dian mase tu 47hari, husband n i took dian for outing at empire, subang. mak nye dh teringin benor nk mkn crispy honey chicken chipotle dgn choc molten, so anak nye pon diangkut same. percayalah.. ia tidak mudah! but we had fun. its a nice experience. hubby n i enjoy it very much.. cant wait for our next outing plak. cuti pjg ni.. mungkin akan bawa dian jln lg one of these days..

well, thats all for today. happy holiday all mummies n readers! *berucap dgn sgt suke hati*

wordless wednesday

missing her~

labor experience : noor dian medina

im back!!!

all the way from my office, baru la dpt online, dpt blogwalking, n dpt update blog sensasi ku ini. syukur boss ku cuti. so i have more time to story mory..

sebelum tu nk luahkan perasaan sementelah 49 hari bergelar mak. overall, im so happy with my life. sikit demi sedikit, im achieving what i want. ya allah, bersyukurnye! my little princess is not so little anymore. im so happy to see her progress. walaupun hari2 belek die, masih xdpt nk terkejar development die. sedar2 je die dh pandai itu ini. she's my everything. begini rupenye jadi mak. padan la mak aku sendiri sanggup sedia kan n buat itu ini utk aku dulu n even smpai skrg. sape xsyg anak oiiii.. *bole nangis kalo fikir pasal anak SENDIRI lame2*

ok, mcm org lain, i nk share gak pengalaman bersalinkan dian. errr.. now i know why ppl share their labor experience in blogs. sbb.. nnt bole lupe!!! errr.. of course la org xlupe sgt kan. tp ade gak la miss sane sini. so, let me keep it here supaya lepas ni cite pengalaman bersalin ku xtunggang terbalik.

4th november 2012

on 4th nov which was sunday, i woke up with slight stain on my panty. actually discharge dh keluar about a week earlier tp cume brownish2 saje. based on the previous check up with dr. mazita, brownish2 tu cume tanda2 awal. but on this particular sunday, its not just any ordinary discharge i normally had, the brownish this time has turned pinkish plak. kalo pink dh hampir ke merah kan? n merah tu darah la kan? refer kat mak, mak suh gi spital. so kitorg bersiap nk ke spital. singgah rumah in law to get our hospital stuff. ade yg ckp muke aku sampai dh merah2.. air selusuh pon dh distand by kan nye.

dlm pkul 10 mcm tu kitorg (kitorg to merujuk kepada myself, husband n sil) smpai demc. straight pgi labor room. keadaan labor room agak tenang. so the nurses did the ctg scan on me.. 

see the contractions? paling kuat pon 30++. bukaan pon xde. so nurse suh blk dulu. i pon blk la..kt umah, i just baring n the pain just getting stronger. mase tu hati cam berbelah bahagi nk gi sepital lg ke x.. konon dh serik utk dihampakan. so husband bwk jln utk tenang kan keadaan. n finally, husband belanja ini..

settle mkn eskem, blk umah blk. still rase sakit. my dad called n advised me to surrender at the hospital. takut kalo nk terberanak tgh mlm, lg susah. so, mlm tu lps maghrib, i was admitted at DEMC. before masuk ward, diorg suh i dok labor room lg utk ctg scan. still xde bukaan n yes the contractions makin bertambah.

aku cuak tgk suami aku cuak. seriously, he's not calming me down. but he tried, i know. maklumla, die first time jgak. n i totally believes that die menggelabah sbb xnak aku sakit. im touched. but pain is still the only way to get the baby out from me. 

1st nite at the hospital, sgt2 sakit. i hate contractions. sbb xtahan n knowing that i need to rest myself, i requested for pain killer. tgk.. aku lupe name pain killer yg aku amik tu. maaf ye.. its the one that makes u feel sleepy n cucuk kt bontot tu. demmm.. i should hv remember. nk google malas. cisssss.. ni la akibat kalo lambat update blog psl experience bersalin.

after the injection, baru la dpt tdo.. i was accompanied by mak n husband. sakit tu mmg masih terase, tapi maybe i was too sleepy to feel it.

5th november 2012

about 4-5am, ade nurse msk bilik bgtau yg pkul7 aku kne masuk LR. mase ni i dh xtau nk gambarkan perasaan. managed to walk around the room n this is the last view i seen with dian still in my womb.

as the pain killer faded away, i dpt rase blk contractions tu. n this time, i hate it even more! kalo the previous nite the contractions tu ade jgak berhenti2 nye, kali ni non-stop.. sakit all the way n its so painful! time tu doctor dtg n check bukaan dh 3cm. about 9.++am, aku tumpas ditgn epidural.. n thanks to epidural la, i once again dpt berehat dgn tenang. 

about 12 something, nurse plak dtg utk check bukaan. kali ni dh 5cm. but i suddenly can feel the pain kne seluk. mase tu blurr kjap. bkn ke i shouldnt feel a thing bile dh amik epidural? so i asked the nurses. dorg kate lebih bagus dpt rase so i can feel the urge to push. but thats not what i've prepared for. i dh set dlm otak baik pnye yg once i amik epidural, i should not feel any pain.

so selepas 5cm, the pain just getting more obvious. i pon start la rase xpuas hati. tp nak buat cane kan, xkan nk cucuk epidural skali lagi. around 1pm nurse check lagi bukaan n guess what, dh 8cm. to me, that was quite fast. patut la rase sakit bebeno.. kan org slalu ckp, rase nk bersalin ni mcm rase nk terberak. honestly, i rase bkn stakat nk berak, nk kencing sume ade. its like, semuanya nk keluar! sempat i marah kan suami sbb xpanggil nurse. i actually nk tanye nurse i bole gi berak ke sbb i mmg dh xtahan sgt. rupe2 nye ade nurse kt blkg aku. patut la husband terkebil2 mase kne marah. hahaha.. sian die. 

tp yg xbest nye, nurse tu bole bantai borak plak mase aku sakit gile tu. time tu xpuas ati gak la sbb mase org tgh sakit, ko pay attention la skit. kalo ko tu cikgu ke, kerani ke, aku paham la. ni nurse, so calm me down la. do something ke ape2. haihhhhh..

bile dh bukak 9cm, ade pulak term atas dh bukak, bwh blom. time tu i just tunggu signal diorg suruh push je sbb dh xtahan sgt dh. mase tu doctor pun xde. cume ade la nurse yg nmpk mcm boss skit (mayb the midwife) dtg n menenangkan i. die puji la kate cpt bukak la, senang bukak la. mase i bgtau die i rase nk berak pon die kate berak je. jgn malu2. n i was like? eh, bole ke? nnt baby kne taik kang.. hehehe.. lepas die kate kepala dh rase, nurse tu terus bg green lite. die kate kalo nk push, push je.. time tu i dh xfikir doctor ade ke x. sampai je contractions, i terus push sekuat hati. 

tgh2 struggle tu, bole plak dgr baby org bilik sebelah pnye suara. haittt... org sebelah dh bersalin aku blom lg. so thats inspired me to keep on pushing. neighbour sebelah tu plak rupenye gune doctor same, so siap je sebelah sane, dr. mazita dtg nk settle kan i plak. so on 1.35pm, i safely gave birth to my daughter.

meet..

noor dian medina binti mohd noor azam

05112012

monday

1335hr

3.37kg

56cm

mode of delivery : normal with assistant of kiwi vacum

overall, i suke experience bersalin ni. nak2 lagi first time. it really means alot to me. bile kenang kan bersalin n tgk dian skrg, omg.. mcm xpercaya je i berjaya keluar kan dian yg skrg bulat2 tu secara normal. alhamdulillah.. semuanya kerana izin allah. 

skrg, dian dh berjaya menggulingkan badan cume apabila die nk carik susu dia. hahaha.. carik nenen sampai terbalik. tp, die bkn tau die nk berguling pon. she's just driven to roll over sbb she's looking for her favorite nipple. alhamdulillah jgak, so far i still manage to breast feed her. cume harap production susu xberkurang sbb i dh start kje. aminnn..

mari nyanyi : bulat kecil, bulat kecil, bulat la besar..